Am I Being to Picky?? na-ahh

Kak Noor is one of two young mother in our class. She is like 29 or something with a seven years old son. I know,  this maybe not to young for some. But exactly how young is too young, how old is too old? Kak Noor is an interesting person. She is married with a guy who is a lot older than she is and she got married during her early twenties. Back to the question, i'm thinking about this because of Kak Noor. One day during class, she asked me and my friend Nay why are we still single. She says, the two of us are being to picky then, she keep calling out the boys name and suggest we should go out with them. Well, I just laugh. It's not like love will just happen miraculously. When she was 20, she 's already to matured for her age. Her traditional upbringing influenced her into thinking certain ways, she believed love can be build after marriage. She had a lot of men who went and asked her parents for permission to marry her. She made her choice. When asked what's her reason to choose, she says she picked someone who is going to be easy to take care.

As for me, I don't think i'm being too picky if it's about my life and who i'm going to spent the rest of my life with. I don't want to settle for less. Less for me is not about wealth or look, it's about love..true love. Yup, I can't believe it myself but I want true love. I don't want to be with someone just because it is convenient or just because all of my friends is getting married. I can't imagine myself being with someone just because i've reached a certain age where I should get married. For now, I'm still not sure whether i've found my true love or not. Maybe it's in front of me but I can't see it but, I know love for sure. I've been to selfish in the past not to except it as it is. Well, if it's true love it'll find it's way.....

p.s. some decision is hard to make, but then you can't be pleasing everyone to find your own happiness

Death

Just the word  'death' gives me chill. For the pass few weeks or rather few months i've seen dear friends lost their loved one, I lost friend who were once close to me ( I still can't except it & havent contacted old friends regarding this, I dont want this to be real).  Just few days ago, it is confirmed that one of the main actor in Glee Cory Monteith has died. It seem unreal when the show is still playing on tv with all the actors were dancing and singing cheerfully. All of these seem unreal....

A few months ago, a dear friend told me his uncle has passed away. I felt really bad, really worst and there's nothing I could do to make him feel better. I know, whatever I said to him wont make him feel any different, he lost his father figure...I hope the family will make it through this ordeal and grow stronger together. My prayer will always be with them.

Miracle is what everyone need. But then, miracle will only be joyfull celebration if it stays a miracle. Reality could change it to worst. I guess that's reality. Just when my friend woke up from coma, starting to post in facebook how he wanted to change his lifestyle to better due to the unfortunate event, everything turned out to worst. He passed out on the way home and was sent back to the hospital. This time it does not look good and he lost his battle. When I heard of this I feel numb, I cannot get myself to call any of my old colleagues and still cant. RIP. All the students lost a great teacher.

My grandfather passed away a month before I was born and this year will be his 26th year anniversary and there will be prayer to comemorate 'bapa' as we call him this saturday. I can't imagine what our birth bring  to the family. They were still grieving at the time. I never knew Bapa, but as i'm preparing the short movie for this saturday I can see that he is a cool father. He likes to wear sunglasses. As we gather this coming Saturday, I pray that a part of you will always stay with me and all the cousins even when we do not know you personally. When you are looking down from heaven please guide us in life :)