Which hurts more??

Which hurts more??  being a secondhand love or knowing that someone you care and love have a change of heart.....

"Secondhand" Cassade Pope

I know that look, I know those eyes
She broke you down again
I'm not surprised

Every time you show up here again
Hands in your pocket, heart on your sleeve
Tell me all about what you need
Lean in close, but I'll take what I can get

Breathe you in, breathe you in like my first cigarette
Breathe you out, breathe you out, turning off the regret
Don't worry, baby, 'cause it's all my fault
I'll take the part that she doesn't want

Breathe you in, breathe you in, take the spark with the smoke
Breathe you out, breathe you out, feel the rush as I choke
I know it's worth it, baby, even if it's just
Secondhand, secondhand love

My heart has no pride standing here
Good thing I can take the tears
Sew you up as I'm tearing at the seams
It's so good, yeah, while it lasts

Go ahead and strike the match
Burn me down, make ashes out of me, yeah

Breathe you in, breathe you in like my first cigarette
Breathe you out, breathe you out, turning off the regret
Don't worry, baby, 'cause it's all my fault
I'll take the part that she doesn't want

Breathe you in, breathe you in, take the spark with the smoke
Breathe you out, breathe you out, feel the rush as I choke
I know it's worth it, baby, even if it's just
Secondhand, secondhand love

I know that you're no good for me
You make me weak as I can be
Bad habits; there is just no breaking free

Breathe you in, breathe you in like my first cigarette
Breathe you out, breathe you out, turning off the regret
Don't worry, baby, 'cause it's all my fault
I'll take the part that she doesn't want

Breathe you in, breathe you in, take the spark with the smoke
Breathe you out, breathe you out, feel the rush as I choke
I know it's worth it, baby, even if it's just
Secondhand, secondhand love
Secondhand, secondhand love
Secondhand, secondhand love

                :'(

Advice from a friend

Do you listen to you friends advice?? I've got few friends who gave great advice. Unfortunately for them, my advice doesn't seem so useful and some of my advice i'd like to take it back. I'm a really lousy advisor. Actually, that depends on what kind of advice i'm giving > <  But, I must admit I'm a really lousy relationship advisor. Sorry friends :p

Once, I asked my friend for advice abt a guy..then, she gave me a very cool advice and come to think of it, I once told her not to give a damn thought for a guy who had a crush on her. (but, he is kinda a jerk :p and was seeing a lot of girls at the same time) The cool advice she gave to me was to follow & trust my heart even if few friends might not agree with my decision.

My mistake was, I overthink and being so coward. I should have follow my heart :')

missed chances ??? :'(

Na-ah, life goes on...I kinda know its my fault. well, real life is not like reality tv. I choose to move forward and might ocassionally make a u-turn somewhere along the way.

Dear me, pls cheer up its almost Christmas

The curse of OVERTHINKING -_-

Hhmm...I really don't have any idea what to write about right now. My mind is just overcrowded with just too many stuff. The trip that I planned with my bff were about to be cancelled and it seems like i'm the only one trying to hard to make sure the plan is still on. Overexhausted for that part and I can't seem to figure out how guys think. I think i've been locked in FRIENDZONED. I deserve this I guess but it stil hurts nonetheless.

Damn!! it's almost Christmas and i'm still not in the holiday mood. Holiday is totally overrated. Arggghh!! I hate this. If only life is like a movie, surely there will be miracle for me this coming christmas or perhaps New Year. Anyway, life is life.

p.s. am i having a meltdown?? i feel so depressed right now...100% down

Follow your heart ????

What's a lie to you? do you consider a secret you kept from someone's a lie...well, a simple word as 'lie' could be so subjective. I think human mind make everything so complicated. Why can't everything be as simple as black & white.

People always say, "follow your heart". Well, would you consider acting on something without thinking it through first??? It is easier to say than to do it. No one wants to put their heart on their sleeves. How can I believe someone who says he can't stop thinking abt me but then goes out with another woman and made it a day to remember for the woman.Lucky her. It hurt even worst when she doesn't seem shy to brag abt your days together. I guess for you, I have no right to be mad or even to question your action. That's fine for me :'( I was just wishing n hoping that you would wait for my answer like I ask you to. How I wished i'd followed my heart, maybe thing would turn out differently. But then I refuse to be a repetitive fool.

~Pain of the heart is worse than the pain of the body. For it only takes a short time for the body to heal but, the heart can take a lifetime~

p.s. If i pray hard enough will everything turn out better. Will he turn back for me. I miss the time when u called when   u r drunk